2 Little Words

Today I picked up the form from Lauren's last post-op check up.
Today I read the words I didn't want to read.
Today I read the words I already knew would be there
but couldn't bring myself to face.

Lauren's journey has been a long one
and now includes a diagnosis of
spinda bifida.

While I've known for sometime,
seeing those words in black and white
startled me
in a way I never expected

I am blessed beyond words
by a now walking baby
that has a smile
and laugh that will make you melt
I am blessed to know
Lauren's condition is mild
but coming to terms with knowing
there is a condition and
not just a delay
or a lazy baby not eager to get up and go
it harder than I imagined.

I know Lauren's a tough cookie
with a heart of gold
who is going to be just fine
I know in her short little life
she has shown more courage
and more strength
than I have in my more than 30 years
I know that
so why am I now letting
2 little words
that I already knew
challenge
what I already know?